Losing a week of sleep

I haven’t been sleeping well for a week. After Susan and I chatted and her telling me about having ovarian cancer and difficult pregnancy. My heart broke that moment she shared how her husband Eugene is not coping well and how she had to drive herself to hospital when she had a contraction. Susan had…

Fight with hubby

Dear God, I felt hurt and blamed yesterday when hubby says his friend is getting pregnant. Why do some woman get  pregnant so easy? I got very frustrated because I felt he has conveniently forgotten he is the one with sperm morphology, which is the only fertility issue we have so far. Even since I…

Children

Dear God, I had lunch with my childhood friend and I realized how much love we have for children. They are so difficult to take care of. Even the little angel baby was a handful just now. I wonder if I would be a good mother in future?

Mother-in-law is incredibly political

Dear God, I could someday wallow and wallow and get stuck in the thinking of how pitiful I am: Childless, had a bitchy mother-in-law and had a best friend for 20 year who is secretly and evilly jealous. So I return back to Singapore with the onset of my menses and very bad cramp, which…

Day 31: Afternoon

Dear God, after lunch I had some tummy cramp and received my period. Which came 5 days late. I will surely be upset because I did not dip into any of the hot springs in my Taiwan trip. Although hot tub has always been my ultimate love. My question is why. Why do I have…

Day 31: No period yet

Dear God, we are still praying that my period will not show. Today is day 31 of my cycle and nothing. Perhaps the longest cycle I ever have. We pray in your undying love. Amen.

Totally convinced I had a jealous bitch as a friend

Dear God, I came across this old Bitstrip that Mon made and am convinced I had a jealous bitch as a friend. Mon is obsessed and it is genetic. This Bitstrip makes me very angry now. It actually is evidence that she has been secretly jealous of me. Ridiculous.

My best friend secretly hates me

Dear God, I realized today that my “best” friend secretly hates me. Only found out today that my best friend has been bearing a long term grudge against me. A year ago, she got married and her Chinese husband stayed with her and her parents. They were arguing everyday and verbally abusive (herself included) to…

How can I ever like her?

Dear God, as I am writing this blog, I am fuming and angry with my ever ridiculous mother-in-law. She had a dual SIM phone because she stays in a different states and holds two phone numbers. It was brand new and rather costly. Later she notice I upgraded from my iPhone and wanted it. I…

Year End Vacation

Dear God, we have asked for a pause in the IVF cycle and will take a holiday this month. Really am feeling so tired from the year. Yesterday, I received my first career award for outstanding forex investment advisory. It is a long time since I receive a plaque. Holding that makes me feels like…

Planning our year end holiday

Dear God, planning a last minute holiday is hmmmm… Stressful! Hubby just told me he still has lots of leaves and really wish to take a holiday this December. December will be implantation month and I think we can only do it end-November. If we are not paying extra, we can only go to Taiwan…

Day Seven the in-laws are here…

Dear God, my in-laws are here. I really don’t like them and them visiting. Why do my mother-in-law need to go to the wet market and buy so much stingy fishes not wrapped properly. Then stuffed them all forcefully into my small fridge and making everything else impossible to retrieve. Why must she cook and…