4 Weeks and 3 Days

Dear God, I had more bleeding yesterday night. In fact, it happened middle of the night. I just woke up, went to the toilet and wiped red blood. Just enough to hit a bit of the sanitary pad. I then walked downstairs to take two tablets of Duphaston. Although the two week wait was a…

9 June 2016

   Dear God, I experienced pregnancy for the first time in my life. Our third IVF (second frozen cycle) has succeeded. My HCG level is 865 at week 5 and my gynecologist is sure they are twins in there. However, at age 35, I am totally shocked. May be five years of trying has programmed…

Goodbye Nor Nor

Dear God, thank you for giving us this joyful fella. Even if it is a short two years, Woody and I could live in the happy memories for our whole life. 26 December 2015, Nor Nor left us around 4pm after a vicious attack by a stray cat. Days before, he was having the fun…

Inability to be happy

   Dear God, G and I visited J this Saturday to catch up and more importantly to share her joy as she welcomes her first baby in December. But we left her home feeling very emotionally burdened as J kept sharing the darker side of her. She kept looking at me with intending looks in…

Dengue Attack

 Dear God, we just returned home after a total dengue attack. Both Woody and I were bitten once we returned from the US. Through this time, our love is sweet and strong. The way Woody walked with his drip to my ward and vice versa bring a smile to the hospital staffs’ faces. They kept…

Losing a week of sleep

I haven’t been sleeping well for a week. After Susan and I chatted and her telling me about having ovarian cancer and difficult pregnancy. My heart broke that moment she shared how her husband Eugene is not coping well and how she had to drive herself to hospital when she had a contraction. Susan had…

Fight with hubby

Dear God, I felt hurt and blamed yesterday when hubby says his friend is getting pregnant. Why do some woman get  pregnant so easy? I got very frustrated because I felt he has conveniently forgotten he is the one with sperm morphology, which is the only fertility issue we have so far. Even since I…

Children

Dear God, I had lunch with my childhood friend and I realized how much love we have for children. They are so difficult to take care of. Even the little angel baby was a handful just now. I wonder if I would be a good mother in future?

Mother-in-law is incredibly political

Dear God, I could someday wallow and wallow and get stuck in the thinking of how pitiful I am: Childless, had a bitchy mother-in-law and had a best friend for 20 year who is secretly and evilly jealous. So I return back to Singapore with the onset of my menses and very bad cramp, which…

Day 31: Afternoon

Dear God, after lunch I had some tummy cramp and received my period. Which came 5 days late. I will surely be upset because I did not dip into any of the hot springs in my Taiwan trip. Although hot tub has always been my ultimate love. My question is why. Why do I have…

Day 31: No period yet

Dear God, we are still praying that my period will not show. Today is day 31 of my cycle and nothing. Perhaps the longest cycle I ever have. We pray in your undying love. Amen.

Totally convinced I had a jealous bitch as a friend

Dear God, I came across this old Bitstrip that Mon made and am convinced I had a jealous bitch as a friend. Mon is obsessed and it is genetic. This Bitstrip makes me very angry now. It actually is evidence that she has been secretly jealous of me. Ridiculous.