First heartbeat

Dear God, We heard the first cutie heartbeat of Baby Girl. She is beautiful and can you see her cute head in the sac? She is 3mm long and the sac is like the size of a Lentil. But I could heard her heartbeat so clearly and could see it too! Thank God for taking…

Week 6 and lovely

Dear God, Missing Woody’s armpit smell and travelling alone on work trip. This morning I had such a prolonged pain in the tummy. It scares me. Turned out to be a tummy upset that went away totally after a morning poo! Amen! Going home soon!

Praying for her safety

Dear God, My Baby Girl is 5 weeks old and the size of a sesame seed. She has a heartbeat now. Yet, Woody and I are still praying really hard for her safety. That she would grow properly to a safe size and time is so slow now. I sleep a lot and eat well….

Positive Pregnancy Test

Dear God, The amazing thing is, I am pregnant again. This time I feel it is different. I only has an implantation bleeding 3 days ago and since feel good and stable. I believe you would help me through this smoothly. From the miracle on the FET day, I knew you would bless little Yvette…

Years later

We are still childless after countless IVFs. My most loved granny died a year and a half ago. Currently undergoing perhaps our last IVF attempt before I face this married life ahead. It seems like yesterday but has been ten years since we were wed. Almost all were happiness except for my constant clashes with…

Grieving

Dear God, the grieving has started. I feel the impending loss of the only mum I had. The woman who love me since my first breath is now labouring her every breath. I have no regret. All the love I had for her would not end. I know she would just keep living on and…

Granny

Dear God, it has been a month since we found out granny had stomach cancer. Late stage. I have lost the ability to be happy almost all. Because she is not just my grandmother, she is my mother, my hero, my survivor and the one person who solely showered me love in my entire 35…

How to love those who sin against us?

Dear God, the more I know about my parent-in-laws the scary I find them. Why would parents gold dig their own child?  Yesterday, Woody just sadly told me his dad actually plan to not return him the 30k we lend them to pay down the housing loan. Our intentions to help relief them of mortgage…

Thank God for such a good Dad

Dear God, Dad called me yesterday evening to check if I am okay. Feeling well? That moment, I got a scare. How would Dad know I had a miscarriage? Because Woody and I had yet to tell anyone. And then he said oh because I am worried the Brexit would be very texting on you….

I will miss the money

Dear God, I am being materialistic. But my biggest worry for quitting to try for a child is losing my cushy income. I am just another material girl on the street who likes the pink diamond earrings, the ultra green jade bangle, organic spa products and all. Stopping work would means no more such indulgence….

Should I give up my career?

Dear God, I have to seriously decide if I should stop work. At 35, I probably have one last chance to relax my body and try to conceive again. At 35, I am also most successful at my job now. I know for a fact that if I stay 10 years in this role, I…

Goodbye babies – 5 week 1 days

Dear God, we lost our babies this morning. Strangely I had a progesterone jab just yesterday evening and felt so happy and safe for the foetuses. So I was stupidly confident before I slept. With no spotting at all last evening and 1 week of bed rest order ahead of me. I fell asleep with…